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[11 May 2007|08:47pm] |
okay, so i'm so pumped on this school year being over
and i'm so pumped on the summer...
but now i'm pretty pumped for next year too.
it's pretty much just gonna be me & ms. sara herter ruling hard, taking names, & kicking ass
so i hate talking on the phone right?
pretty much the only person i can talk to for more than 15 minutes is tom
sara fits into the talk for more than 15 minutes category as well now, i adore that girl. we have such similar minds.
lol we totally hated eachother at the beginning of the year too, cause like.. she did hella drugs, and i really hated her for it. she hella hated me for being completely self-righteous (as i was) about hating drugs. then i gave her the benefit of the doubt, and to my suprise she really wasn't the drugged out lame ass i thought she was.
SO glad i gave her that chance, and im so glad she was able to put aside her mutual hate for me to just try to be friends.
we're going to have SO MUCH FUCKING FUN next year.
zombie club. that's where it's at.
we've already begun to recruit members, and we've talked to the vice principal about having a day where there would be a simulated zombie attack and the students trapped inside the school building would have to figure out what to do, etc. etc.
we're so much on the same level
AHHH zombie fest tomorrow night & hella comic book monopoly which we bought a pearly's garage sale =)
life is so good!
p.s. i totally saw 28 weeks later, and it was amazing. the infected aren't completely legit zombies but it doesn't matter. it was an excellent movie. the first one is better (duh) but again! it doesn't matter! anything with blood + gore + zombies + running from zombies + tricky zombies + snipers is A-OKAY with me
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[09 May 2007|10:32am] |
i feel productive
i feel good
there are so many reasons for me to be happy
when you finally face your problems, and when you realize that you have people who understand, who want to help, and will be there... it's just such a relief
MY particular issue is i dont know what im doing. im pretty lost, i know i'm just playing a lot by ear. i know that i also have this preconcieved idea of what i want to be, but i'm not fitting into that, and it's exasperating, and frustrating, and hard to accept. but i'm starting to, or trying to at least. for me the first step in forgetting what i think i need to be is going to be about letting go of how much i care about what other people think of me. i've lost friends who i care about deeply, and i still don't COMPLETELY know why, but because of that i've started to try to make myself a certain way for certain people, so that i can be the friend that THEY want to be friends with. that needs to stop. it's hard.
knowing all of this about myself is freeing
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[06 May 2007|09:01am] |
yesterday was fun!
well.. not the SAT part, but i guess that wasn't too bad
woke up stupidly early then got on that SAT hype (LOL) and made my way over bay. it was a complete overload of people i know. mehhhh. it was so good to see pearly and vicky though.
after that went back home walked lily, then went downtown. this is where the shopping begins.
so i left the house a little after two.
i was out shopping until six.
i NEVER want to do that much shopping again.
i got some really neat stuff though.
two shirts, a head thing, a pair of heart shaped sunglasses, and a pair of shoes.
met up with rye and sam on haight and charged around down there for a bit. we were on that shopping tip (mad lolz).
then we went back to their house and watched youtube stuff for a bit, it's always so funny. then we walked on down to chinatown and had hella good food again. then we walked downtown to catch the 45 to go to van ness to see Spiderman III which wouldn't have been very good without the hella ghetto fab commentary going on behind us. on the bus back to rye's there was this woman who was just TALKING AND TALKING and wouldn't shut up even to breath. then it donned on me. this woman looked EXACTLY like kelly from the office, so i told sam, and the two of us laughed until we cried. so good.
my mom was out till 2 in the morning?
this has become a daily occurence?
the most i've seen of her this entire week has been about 5 hours total.
it's really weird.
tom.
im so sorry i haven't been around much lately
i really miss you, and you've gotta know that if given the oppurtunity, you'd be the one i'd be spending all my time with.
i love you.
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[04 May 2007|10:53pm] |
i expected today to SUCK BALLZ
it really didn't though!
so good =>
hung out at the beach with boukie, caught up
was sooooo excellent, i missed her real bad
walked into town with rye and trevor to get lunch
then went back to the beach and just played music
rye had his guitar, and felipe had brought his acoustic bass, so trevor borrowed that and we just played for like...4 straight hours. such a good feeling. after music trevor and i got into a competetive game of chess which i lost. lame.
then we left and went back to trevors house to record some songs we've been working on. i'll put a link to our music page once i've uploaded all our songs and shit. sooooooooooooooooooooooo awesome.
do this.
1. How are you?
2. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite food?
6. What was the last book you read and how is it?
7. What was the last movie you watched? Did you like it?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings (if you have piercings, don't tell me what they are, I don't want to know)?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Capitalism?
11. Do we know each other outside of livejournal (I'm really curious)?
12. What is your favorite sport?
13. Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
14. Which superpower?
15. Favorite color?
16. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
17. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
18. Tell me one interesting fact about yourself.
19. Ice T or Ice Cube?
20. Do you have any pets?
21. What time is it where you are now?
22. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
23. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
24. Celebrity crush?
25. Do you wear glasses/contacts?
26. Mary Kate or Ashley?
27. Ever been arrested?
28. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
29. What's your favorite bar to hang out at?
30. Do you believe in ghosts?
31. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
32. Is bavaria a country?
33. Do you swear a lot?
34. What is your favorite swear word?
35. Biggest pet peeve?
36. Coffee or tea?
37. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
38. In one word, how would you describe me?
39. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
40. Post a picture of yourself. A good one, where I can actually see what you look like.
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[03 May 2007|08:44pm] |
i think tomorrow is going to SUCK
i know saturday is going to suck
fucking SATS at the mother fucking bay school
i dont want to go back there
every time i go back it's horrible
i dont want to see people i hate
i do want to see vicky
that im thinking, is pretty much it
fuck SATS
fuck the bay school
fuck shitty people
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[02 May 2007|11:22pm] |
jeeeeeesus
i love bob dylan so much
It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
It don't matter, anyhow
An' it ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
If you don't know by now
When your rooster crows at the break of dawn
Look out your window and I'll be gone
You're the reason I'm trav'lin' on
Don't think twice, it's all right
It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
That light I never knowed
An' it ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
I'm on the dark side of the road
Still I wish there was somethin' you would do or say
To try and make me change my mind and stay
We never did too much talkin' anyway
So don't think twice, it's all right
It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal
Like you never did before
It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal
I can't hear you any more
I'm a-thinkin' and a-wond'rin' all the way down the road
I once loved a woman, a child I'm told
I give her my heart but she wanted my soul
But don't think twice, it's all right
I'm walkin' down that long, lonesome road, babe
Where I'm bound, I can't tell
But goodbye's too good a word, gal
So I'll just say fare thee well
I ain't sayin' you treated me unkind
You could have done better but I don't mind
You just kinda wasted my precious time
But don't think twice, it's all right
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[02 May 2007|08:36am] |
i think this is going to be a long silly post
IM SO NERVOUS
my band is playing for the first time ever today at our school "poetry slam" LOL but it's gonna be really stressful because LEMONY SNICKET is gonna be here too, and i want our band to be impressive. we're gonna play our song ( seasick ) and it's TOTALLY gonna rule. i hope. okay well like, a zillion hours later i've come back to this entry and it DID go really well. it was scary, but i think we did pretty well =) i was shaking so bad once it was over, but it was SO worth it. i cannot WAIT for band practice this saturday. however i CAN wait for saturday itself. FUCK YOU SAT'S! i have to take them at the bay school =( which is going to SUCKKKKKK. bleahhh 20 more minutes of french... id rather dieeee.
lemony snicket is totally awesome by the way
he's so funny, and so nice, and just so excellent
he signed my arm LOL.
today i pretty much only had 3 classes.
us history
english
french
c'est tout!
i got to skip chem because the admin rep from SARAH LAWRENCE!!!!!!!!!!! was here. oh my GOD, im so applying there. it looks fucking amazing. so, i missed chem for that. then i missed math cause i was helping with set up for the poetry slam thing, then we had an extended lunch which meant no photo, then english, now french, then hoooome!
tomorrow no school, going to the DeYoung to see the Vivienne Westwood exhibit... that's goin on all day!!
then FRIDAY is gonna be excellent. it's TMS beach day.
the whole school is going to stinson beach to just chill and barbecue and rule. so im pumpppped.
then there's only like, less than a month of school left and it's SUMMER!
i love anime ^_^
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[01 May 2007|08:59pm] |
i believe i've finally figured it out
hello upper inside of my left arm tat!
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[28 Apr 2007|09:03pm] |
today was one of those GOOD DAYS
i had very little expectation
and i was pleasantly suprised
soooo i had to wake up stupidly early to go to SAT class
my mom fooled me into thinking i had a diagnostic today
when in fact we were just going over the writing & grammar portion
no problem, so fucking easy
after that rye picked me up in mill valley to go to band practice
this didn't happen of course so we just worked on our songs for when we play hella coffee houses
then we picked up his brother and went into the city for sushi
then we went back to their dads house and i learned how to play call of duty 3, and how to cheat and we made a lot of people REALLY mad it was hilarious
cause like, when you get a critical injury in the game you spawn in this one place and like, rye and i would stand our characters infront of the doorway of the place where all these people on our team were spawning and NONE of them could get out and it was fucking hysterical because since it's XBOX live you can hear all these people yelling and being like "who the fuck is standing infront of the door" and lolz
then we walked to Chinatown and got porkbuns and a bunch of other sketchy looking food, and rye and his brother just argued about politics the whole time
all in all it was a funny day
and it was good
the ONLY THING that could make this day any better
would be to have tom here
i cant fucking WAIT for summer
a whole month
i get a whole month with him
i'm ecstatic
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[27 Apr 2007|11:11pm] |
GUH
fuck
im seriously so tired of getting cancelled on
and im even MORE fucking tired of feeling unimportant
and im frustrated
i hate getting told one thing, to then have it changed the next minute
im working on this new song with rye to play at coffee houses
It's been a bloody stupid day
My baby called me up to say
Don't call me love, don't call me
It's not all she said
I truly love her but I know
I'm bad for her, I'm bad and so
At least she may forgive me for my honesty
My friend came back from being abroad
He was rich and I was overawed
His ship came in
I'm standing on the harbour wall
Another friend, the one I love
Turns to me "Have you seen enough?"
"Let's hang about
There's nothing like a sunset INTO THE NIGHT"
It's been a bloody stupid day
Don't leave the light on baby
My baby called me up to say
Don't leave the light on baby
I'll see you sometime maybe
Don't leave the light on baby
It finally dawned on me tonight
Best to go down without a fight
I know you will forgive me for my honesty
mmmmm belle and sebastian
we have...
- you may know him, by Cat Power
- cold cold night, by the White Stripes
- dont leave the light on baby, by Belle and Sebastian
- seasick, by rye
- my wolf, by rye
- with arms outstretched, by Rilo Kiley
- somebody elses clothes, by Rilo Kiley
and maybe metal heart, by Cat Power
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[27 Apr 2007|09:04pm] |
let down
after let down
after fucking let down
im so doneeee with people
band practice was good though
fuck SATs
need more band practice
i haven't eaten today and there's no food in my house
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[25 Apr 2007|07:03pm] |
i am more than just unhappy
i dont want to just bottle up these feelings
im so fucking tired of crying
i dont think i'm strong enough to survive any of this
what am i going to fucking do?
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[24 Apr 2007|06:55pm] |
why is it that when one of us is free
the other always isn't
and vice versa?
all i've been able to think about today is how you're my person
you're MY person
you're the one who i want to impress all the time
you're the one who's smile makes me happier than anything else in the whole world
your smile is so amazing
i just want to be with you and make you smile
i get jealous when other girls do that
it's silly but i do
you know how jealous i get, you're not doing this on purpose i know that
but those two make me SO FUCKING JEALOUS
they're older
they're beautiful
you've dated one of them
and you once said to me that the other is one of the most beautiful girls you know
ugh i just miss you so much
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[24 Apr 2007|08:11am] |
oh hay girl!
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[23 Apr 2007|02:18pm] |
byahhhhhhhhh
the booooks tonighhhhht
it's gonna be goooooood
after like... 2 hours im gonna be a lil 4 eyes!
glasses for the nearsighted
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[21 Apr 2007|10:25pm] |
things have just been SHITTY lately!
i cancelled all my plans tonight so i could hang with paris
then i got cancelled on?
im pissed off for my own selfish reasons
im also tired of all the parties
i dont UNDERSTAND parties
therefore they make me uncomfortable
i have never been to a house party
i have never been to a hill party
or a bush party
or any sort of party
and frankly, i never want to go to one
all the same, they make me uncomfortable
april was one of the loneliest, suckiest months of my life
spending this much time with my dad makes me depressed
it's not that i dont think he's a good guy, because he is
but he's just so depressed himself...
it's hard to be around, all i can do is just absorb the depressedness in this house and it's making me freak
today during band practice was the first time i've slept for more than 30 minutes at a time since wednesday
well, at least im seeing vicky on monday
go books!
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[21 Apr 2007|12:31am] |
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lame
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[17 Apr 2007|07:34pm] |
i wish i were busier
i wish i had more stuff to do
i'm loney
i'm sick
i just want finals to get here so i can study
not focus on ANYTHING else
and then just get into summer
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